Eyes wide open. A rude, unnatural awakening. A bad fall, not out of sleep but into wakefulness.
Mind racing desperately to grab hold of the finely-woven dream threads now quickly unraveling. Please God, help me remember.
A thin thread of a man’s voice reading a book, a really good book, a best-seller-kind of book. A familiar voice, one similar to the voice of my own thoughts, yet not my thoughts, now gone. Completely forgotten.
I remember only one thing … I am the protagonist of the forgotten book.
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Later, as I ponder this nighttime parable, I’m reminded of Lucy in the Chronicles of Narnia. Lucy reads a magic book and soon discovers that the right-hand pages, could be turned; the left-hand pages could not. As much as Lucy tried, she could not remember all the wonderful things she had read, and she could not turn back the pages of the book to read it again.
When Aslan, the great Lion King of Narnia and the son of the great Emperor-Beyond-the-Sea appears, Lucy asks him,
“Shall I ever be able to read that story again; the one I couldn’t remember? Will you tell it to me, Aslan? Oh do, do, do,”
“Indeed, yes, I will tell it to you for years and years.”
Like Aslan, the great Lion King (the God-character in the storybook), there is One Above (or should I rather say within) who is the author of my life book. One who has been telling me my story for years and years.
As long as I have breath, I live page by page, unable to go back for there is no use in that. I’m speaking of the regrets, the whys and the what-ifs. For as Aslan explains, no one is ever told what would have happened.
So, I’m learning to live a life of no regrets. It takes trust, it takes faith, it takes loving myself. And that kind of love comes only from the Author of my book, who will be telling it to me for years and years.
I may never know what a different ending holds, and even if I did, it may not be what I expect, which is why it’s best I get rid of all regret.Lois Stephens
Love & Peace,
“… looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, …”. Hebrews 12:2